I can't do this anymore.. week by week I have consumed myself in anger.. and I really can't carry on apologising...
So what do I do? .. eventually I am to end up destroying whatever is left of my credibility.. whats left to destroy..
and finally tonight.. the one person who I banked on.. kind of like a stronghold guardian and forever watcher.. like a satans alternative I cast all my doubts and anger.... rage and bitterness towards my life towards that person.. and I again apologise..

Their response.. unsurprisingly.. was to tell me that sorry doesn't cut it any more.. well.. I can't keep apologising.. as its destroying me.. and I've undoubtedly tested the will of everyone..not just here on this forum but on MSN and everywhere else...
I hope he gets to read this.. as my decision will probably not surprise anyone here but I'm quitting.. not just here on joe dios but everywhere.. I have wronged someone so badly and accused them of lying.. when they was telling the truth.. I'm not looking for sympathy right now.. why? Because I honestly dont believe I deserve it..
I wish everyone.. ender098 and Sonnelion, general scarlett and outrider and everyone on this forum all the best of luck for the future..
Again.. I apologise to the person I wronged take care man..
NEF.

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"I can glide silently and land without a sound, I am the eerie presence in the pitch black room"

Rich,

Either PM or IM me, PLEASE....................ASAP!!!

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Well NemesisEnforcerFan I don't know what's going on, but I hope that it gets resolved quickly so you can return to the boards. We'll save a seat for you.

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dude snap out of it man don't put yourself through this your a value to this forums and to the joedios family don't quit everything soo what if you lied? it was an mistake and theres no since and putting yourself through this soo just stick around and don't leave we can get through this don't beat yourself up this will blow over

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"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace."

Huh???

WTF. If you called someone out on the carpet over something and you were wrong, well an apology, if the other person is understanding and compasionate, should suffice. Unless you said something about his mother I am sure you would be forgiven. I can almost feel your grief and sincerity in your post.

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You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, that's not far from the truth.

Hi Guys,


I love the fact that all of you are this feeling and compassionate...........and I know that Rich does too. He's told me so through IM................so on his behalf, I want to extend thanks to everyone!!


Rich is doing better...............and the incident in question has been resolved.........all is as it should be.

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Non illigitamus carborundum~Vos mos non effrego mihi

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your happy all the time hh scar..?

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"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace."

Well, I do try my damnedest................even when I get ripped about something........I'm Irish, so I blow up and then it goes away...................

Life's too short..........and wasting it on bullsh*t is ridiculous..............don't sweat the small stuff........and it's ALL small stuff!!

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Non illigitamus carborundum~Vos mos non effrego mihi

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