I can't do this anymore.. week by week I have consumed myself in anger.. and I really can't carry on apologising...
So what do I do? .. eventually I am to end up destroying whatever is left of my credibility.. whats left to destroy..
and finally tonight.. the one person who I banked on.. kind of like a stronghold guardian and forever watcher.. like a satans alternative I cast all my doubts and anger.... rage and bitterness towards my life towards that person.. and I again apologise..

Their response.. unsurprisingly.. was to tell me that sorry doesn't cut it any more.. well.. I can't keep apologising.. as its destroying me.. and I've undoubtedly tested the will of everyone..not just here on this forum but on MSN and everywhere else...
I hope he gets to read this.. as my decision will probably not surprise anyone here but I'm quitting.. not just here on joe dios but everywhere.. I have wronged someone so badly and accused them of lying.. when they was telling the truth.. I'm not looking for sympathy right now.. why? Because I honestly dont believe I deserve it..
I wish everyone.. ender098 and Sonnelion, general scarlett and outrider and everyone on this forum all the best of luck for the future..
Again.. I apologise to the person I wronged take care man..
NEF.

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